all I want

All I want is tact and self sufficiency.

she only dates a man with a PhD
no boys no bs no ba
just straight up legitimacy for this

girl

put your face away

the heat is all over my face
in color, and
the warmth spreads to my cheeks and my ears are burning.

The girl that only used big guns

'nuff said.

The adventure, and the emotion, and I want to cry.
Feel the tears welling in my eyes.






Feeling that I can finally feel, my gut gasps.

Here's why I ruined your mirror:

I wanted to hurt something I loved, because someone I loved was hurting me.






I twisted the stem, snapped and mangled the supporting system that held the reflective device above your throttle.

Legally you only need one.

I hadn't met the right people, you said; the people you meet that you can trust- I had just met the wrong people, you said.

And, after you vilified my name, poisoned my recognizing unit with negative connotations and emotional distress, I asked you
for the truth.

You hated me for needing the truth, seemingly.






That's not my problem. I do, however, have a problem now:

Your right mirror.

I sit here, like I am supposed to
know what to do
by sitting.

Exhausted scenes, film thinned to a brittle crusty memory
hardly surviving the wheel.

~~~~~~
Fuck it, I know you're busy, I need someone right now and I know you can't be the one I need for your own sake. I'm going to stop, or I'm going to at least try to stop. My sincere apologies for wasting both of our times.
~~~~~~

Dear      ;

I am now confused as to whether or not it makes sense for me to want to spend time with you when I am freaking out. I cannot decipher whether you want to play the friend role
or would rather that I leave you alone.

I don't know how to
reach out to you.

I don't know how to
reach out to people.

Sincerely yours,

tired and small